Rough Mommy Days

Over the past week or so, my heart has been challenged as a mother. I know this is all a part of it, but it just seems to have fallen together all of a sudden. For one, Taylor had his big first fall. Check out his blog for some pictures. He is fine, and things could have been MUCH worse, but all the same, it still broke my heart to see him hurting. The first few nights after he had fallen were rough and it wasn't because anything was seriously wrong, it was because he could not get comfortable. He moves alot when he sleeps, so he kept hitting his scrapes, or rubbing up against the bed rail and just wanted Mommy to hold him. You know there is something wrong with Taylor or he doesn't feel well when he voluntarily wants you to hold him :) He has become too busy for this, so while I didnt like that he was hurting, I did enjoy the cuddling.

Secondly, on my way to dropping off Taylor yesterday morning I came across something I never wanted to see. While traveling in front of Bonnie Kate there was a child struck by a car. It was two cars behind me, so I didn't see it happen, but I did see all the parents on the other side of traffic react. Traffic was stopped and there was a father watching his car in front of me, and he said he would stay there, so I went to see if I could help. While my medical knowledge is basic, I didn't see anyone else trying to help. There were a few other women calling 911, but no one helping the child or his mother, who was right across the street when this happened. Both parties were screaming and crying, but for the most part the boy looked okay. Clearly scared, he was trying to climb on top of his mother, so that was a good sign. His movement looked fine and all I could see was a large gash on his head where he hit the pavement. I tried my best to comfort both him and the mother, but she made it perfectly clear that she did not want anyone touching her son that was not a doctor. Thankfully I heard sirens a few seconds later, so they were there quickly. I can't imagine how that would feel to see it happen, especially to your own children. Turns out the woman driving the car was trying to dial her cell phone and was not paying attention. Both children involved are fine and the driver has been punished. When I dropped Taylor off, all I wanted to do was hug him. He'll be big enough to go to school soon enough, and I can't imagine having to pass on the responsibility of watching him onto others.

Lastly, one of my worst fears happened. Usually I don't drop Taylor off in the mornings. Dustin goes into work later, so he does that, but today Dustin was out of town and I had a dentist appointment. When I went to tell Taylor bye bye, he cried. I tried to distract him, but he kept crying. After I walked outside, he opened the front door and stood at the glass storm door and cried more. I could see him as I was driving away...STILL CRYING. I looked back as I was up the street, and he was still there...talk about breaking your heart. It took everything I had to keep going to work. I know he was fine in a few minutes, but at that moment he was crying for me.

They really can play a number on your emotions, but also fill you with so much love at the same time.

Job Idea

Lately I have enjoyed some good "girly" movies (if you haven't seen Catch and Release...it's really good!) and I've decided there is a great need in "real life" for a new career for someone out there. In almost all great movies that pull at your heart strings or leave you feeling happy at the end there is that one or two lines that stick out. Think of your favorite movie or that one movie you could watch over and over and over again...I can almost guarantee that you know those lines in them...and you are thinking of them now and smiling.

You've heard of Life Coaches, well I want to take it one step further...we need Life Scripters. Somehow these people would be able to feed you that perfect line at the perfect time, so we could live these moments in our own lives and not have to watch someone else enjoy them.

New 90210

So I have officially been sucked in... I have always been a sucker for teeny-bopper dramas, and the new 90210 is no exception. I have always LOVED the original 90210 and still watch the re-runs now. I was afraid they would try to type cast the new cast into the same roles as the old show, but they really didn't. There are lots of similarities in some of the characters, but it is definitely not a carbon copy of the original. Another aspect I liked is the tie-ins to the old story lines. Kelly Taylor is a guidance counselor and Brenda Walsh is back!!! For those of us who watched the old show were able to giggle at the inside jokes they threw in there through the whole episode. Kelly was even able to laugh at herself and her old character at one point. They did leave it open to follow the original cast and the new ones. I love it!! I already have tons of questions that need answers...Who is the father of Kelly's kid? Where is David in all the Silver family drama?

The writers did a great job getting new watchers and appealing to us original fans. They got me :)

Thanks to Everyone

I think I am FINALLY done with my drama at work...at least for a week or so. I found out on Friday that I get to keep my job!! My "boss" got a second CVT position approved from the high-high ups, so we both get to have a job. That is where the drama will start again. The man who started all the drama starts to work on Sept. 2. Awkward...

It's going to be uncomfortable for many people and we need to give him the benefit of the doubt, but that is hard. He stirred up a lot of drama for a lot of people and caused a lot of undue stress on not only myself, but most everyone in the department. I also know it's going to be hard for him to come into "hostile territory" but he did bring it on himself.

Since I am completely off the subject...I wanted to say thank you to everyone who had me in their thoughts and prayers. I greatly appreciate each and every one of them.

Window anyone?

When God closes a door he opens a window.

We've all heard it, and it is for sure easier to say than it is to hear. I'm sure we've all said it to someone in one way or another. Why does it seem to change meaning when we are the one hearing it? Right now in my life I am having issues at work with my job and there are other emotional burdens I am having to carry.

I have really begun to like my job. I didn't know how I would feel about the clinical part of the medical field, but once I learned more about my expectations and had support at work to learn, I've really begun to enjoy it. I've always been one that loved school. I loved learning and I loved being able to prove myself wrong when I did good on a test or exam that was impossible. Everyday at work I learn more. If anyone wants to know the path the blood takes through the heart or the electrical path that our heart shoots to cause an EKG and the problems that might happen, I'd be happy to share :) This is not what I want to do for the rest of my life, but it is in the right direction. For now I am trying to take in the opportunity that I probably would not have been able to get had I not known the right people.

On Thursday I found out that the guy who does my job at Baptist East has filed an formal complaint through the Union regarding my job. Baptist East has had a Union for a long time, and Mercy Health Partners has agreed to honor it and it's members till August 1. He feels now that his job is in jeopardy, he is obligated to mine. Sadly, upper level management agrees. At this time I do not have a Manager or a Director to fight for me, and my Team Leader is doing all she can. I have some doctors on my "side" that are talking to anyone who will listen, but I don't know what good it is going to do. When I was offered and even when I started my job this guys job was NOT in jeopardy at all, but the new administration doesn't want to start a fight with the Union, so it sounds like they are going to give in. I haven't given up completely, but I am trying to see the reality in the situation.

There will be other jobs, there will be other opportunities, but I expected Baptist to have more loyalty to me. I've worked for them for 5 years and have given them no reason to question my work ethic or my loyalty to the company.

With this and other problems I am going through, I am getting VERY stuffy in the room I am in. I've seen the door shutting, and I am dying for a window...

Advice Worth Sharing

I know I have been absent for a little bit....but I am now a working woman again. Working with the public again helps me to see how much chatting with strangers can be fun and you get the best stories. You also have to take the good with the bad, so I'm sure I'll have more horror stories than good ones, but thankfully this one is good.

I am working in the same department I was working in before we moved for a little bit, but a very different job. I am now considered clinical and I am working with the patients hands-on. This gives them plenty of more time to chit chat when they are nervous. I've found that sweet, little ladies are the chatters, and they ALL chat because they are nervous.

A few days ago an 87 year old came in for an Adenosine Stress Test and that allows for a good 30 minutes of set-up, test, and take down chatting time. She was very nervous and thankfully the Cardiologist that day was nice and chatted with her. He knew that keeping her talking would distract her on how yucky she was probably feeling. She talked about her 90 year old husband and how he was WW II vet. She also talked of her children and grandchildren and it was amazing how "with it" she was. She said her and her husband had recently celebrated there 70th wedding anniversary. SEVENTY YEARS!! While talking about her husband she had a sweet grin on her face the whole time. She told us how proud she was of him that he could still drive, go to the store, and take care of them. Couples like this give me hope for the future. In a world filled with divorce, separation, and families without marriage, it is reassuring to see that people can still make it work.

We asked her what the secret was. How did she stay married and happy for so long? She smiled really big and gave a little giggle. She then told us that we need to "Always stay in control and keep control in the marriage, but always let him THINK he is in control."

How true...how true...

Sex and the City

If you are a Sex and the City fan, you MUST go see the movie. I went and saw it with my SATC friend, and we both had set ourselves up for a potential disapointment, but the movie lived up to all our expectations. The story line was wonderful and the writers were able to tie up any questions you had about where these characters had gone and where they would go in the future. The store line seems predictable....but watch out...it's not!

The movie is so good, I'm ready to see it again...Any takers??